oh but i will

live the dream
i won't tell
i will do it just the same
be with you, my lover
dance under my skin
glow from the inside out
others will have guesses they can't believe
we will wake up
in love
and go to bed
in love always
write love poems
in between love songs
in between the rest
oh but i will
live the dream
manifest destiny
take care of us
stay close (this close)
to perfection always
one step from heaven
i can smell it
i can see it
you and i, the dream
our life

simple

it gets more simple all the time
(like this)
under pressure
passes time
keeping busy
goals in line with my desires
under bright lights
passing time with blinking eyes
commitments in sync with my liberties
i feel free and am entirely devoted (to you)

so it is true
i have never been so happy
guess i never even knew
happiness was possible
all i needed was you
it gets more simple all the time
(like this)
the ghost that was once inside is free
is free and flying
i just thank (every morning every night)
i just pray (every breath every step)
that i have you
that i keep you
that i never lose you

all the time
all i need is your love
the rest falls into place with grace
and all apart comes together
i can't tell you everytime
just know
all the time, you effect me
you are changing me

as i pass the time with minimal tears
i wait to see you again
i keep myself busy
i keep my self stuck on you
giving all the energy i can project
into protecting our future
and being One with You
wholly and forever

span me

years

span me the distance between

our separation and our future children

i want our love to span lifetimes

caught all here at once stretching

the circumference of the earth

and all the years in between

what year is it?

how old are we now?

where are we?

when will we get home?

every day

better than the last

just have to remember

the is no such thing as starting over

there is only now anyway

there are no blank pages

and usually no one's taking pictures

Making Peace

Making peace with my ancestors

means following my heart

means accepting my calling

means letting the spirit guide me

This is how I surmount mountains of challenges

set before like chutes and ladders, this is how

I stop my own conflicts

All around me

I still hear you arguing

with each other, with your ghosts

I have stopped fighting

you, our universe

I will find happiness

in peace, not conflict

It only makes sense

In The Graveyard

::: Walking around in the graveyard I think of you and the ways you used to touch me  so certain with your fingertips you'd trace my curves  so perfect and then just graze my heart with your lips You would tell me I love you and please don't be afraid fit your heart inside mineI wanted you to hold me forever I wanted us to never die I study the tricolored moss on the headstones  and think of you and I undressing the way the candles flickered  more intensely the more we moved the hotter it got I remember shouting This is how I want to die because there was nothing else I enjoyed more nothing else I enjoyed at all nothing

for the first time in a long time

i am alone

for a moment there

fleeting, i felt your touch

now i can't sleep

because you are gone

i can't feel your arms around me

i can't smell you at all

i try to find your scent in dirty clothes or small scraps you once gave me

i smell nothing

i call you and you don't answer

i can't even leave a message

you are gone

from me 

from us

i am also somewhere else

alone